Cleaning House

When Brody is napping I am like suzy homemaker on crack. :) hahaha.. seriously I run around trying to do whatever I can in the 20 minutes, 45 minutes, 2 hours and sometimes if I am lucky 2 1/2 hours however long it might last.. I am like a mad woman. This morning he went down around 10am. I folded laundry, did the dishes, swept and scrubbed the kitchen floor, cleaned the bathroom, did my hair and makeup, spent quiet time with God and am now blogging. He is still sleeping. :) I thought about how much energy I put into cleaning my house and how I allow my clean house to make me feel. I put so much stalk into it. If I have accomplished all this, then I am a good wife and mother. It's a little embarrassing but truly it makes me feel so accomplished. As I was cleaning God put it on my heart to evaluate why I don't clean the rooms of my soul with the same energy and desire. It really made me sad. I struggle quite a bit with fear and anxiety. It's less but it's still there. It nags at me and I allow it to rule my life. So after I cleaned up a bit, I finally sat down and talked to God. Today I asked the Lord to come in and clean out the dark corners of my soul. I don't want to be a slave to fear and anxiety, I want the Lord to be the ruler of my heart & soul. I know that this may be one of many times where I might have to resurrender to him. However, I wrote a list of verses that talk about fear and anxiety and I asked him to bring these verses to my mind when I am struggling. So anyway, today I cleaned two houses! :) Tomorrow I will start with my soul first. :)

First Word

Brody said his first word last Saturday. :) Before I go into this I will just tell you that my husband had a pet duck when he was a kid. His nickname when he was younger was ducky or Donald Duck. So like I said previously Brody's favorite toy is probably his rubber ducky. I was reading a book with him, turned the page and there was a picture of a rubber duck in a tub. Brody pointed to it and said ducky!! Sure he has said Mama, Dada but this is the first word where he pointed to the object and identified it! It was pretty cool and he said it again tonight! So cute.... :)

I DO know him...

I am not sure if I was typical or not. I have often heard people talking about this instant madly in love with their baby. Don't judge me, I loved him, he was our baby but I didn't have that moment that I hear women talk about. Actually I told myself I loved him for a while. I did but I had to tell myself. I am very emotional, I feel strongly and deeply but after Brody was born I struggled connecting. This is unusual for me. Here was a stranger. I didn't really know him. I didn't know his likes, or dislikes. I didn't know how to take care of him.
I struggled with Post Partum Depression. I know that there are a lot of women that do, honestly though I am just now starting to feel like I am getting over it and he is 9 months old. A lot of women that have talked about it said that it only lasted a month or two. I didn't want to tell anyone, actually you all are the first, that I have just started feeling like I am getting over it. Sometimes I still feel haunted by it. Being home with Brody has done wonders for me. I think I started connecting with him awhile ago but it did take some time but definately since I have been home we have connected. However it was just the other day that I looked at him and thought " I DO know him". I know I have so much more to learn but I know when he is hungry, tired, and all of the taking care of your baby stuff. BUT I also know that he is ticklish EVERYWHERE, I know that he likes stuffed animals and blankets, his favorite toy is probably his rubber ducky, he likes books, pictures, he loves to "talk" and to be talked to, he is stubborn and yet mostly pretty mellow, he loves to peek at you from behind a book or computer or the door or chair, he is affectionate on his terms, he loves the television, he loves holding onto something... my shirt or a blankie or again stuffed animal - mainly when he is sleepy or having a bottle, he adores his daddy, when he is mad he gets really mad and screams, mostly I know that he is loved and cherished for the boy that God has created him to be. He is such a cool kid. Maybe it's because I am his mom but he has such personality and spunk. I am so blessed to know him, love him and to be called mommy.

BAT BABY!

This is mine and Brody's version of Batman!! :)

His laugh warms my heart!

Brody has started laughing at the TV. Until now he laughs when we tickle him or we do something silly. It's so fun for me when I step out of the room and hear him laugh. Right now he is watching Winnie the Pooh and is just laughing at Kanga. He also loves Baby Einsteins My First signs. Anyway I am just amused that he is developing this sense of humor, I wonder how his little mind works and what exactly is funny about what he is seeing or hearing?

Do you think maybe I should feed them??!

So I am out of control today. This is my last post. I just can't seem to stop writing and reading. I am enjoying looking at other peoples blogs and working on my own. I don't typically get this much time but I had to laugh because I am hungry. If I am, I am sure that Don and Brody are hungry. So I suppose it's time to stop and go feed the boys! Sorry if that wasn't worth reading, I sometimes get a too much of a kick out of myself. Later.

Who else is out there?

I don't get a lot of comments. Mainly from the same people. However, the thing about blogging that is interesting and I really enjoy is the random people who stop by. I have had the privelage of two other mommy's who have crept onto my blog and I very much enjoy your comments. I enjoy looking at your blogs and glimpsing into your lives. It makes me wonder... who else is out there? Who else is looking at my blog and into my world. I hope you will post and say hit! God Bless.

I GIVE UP!

Ok sorry but the pictures are posted. They are not in the order I wanted them to be... and it might be confusing because the titles of the posts are backwards but Whatever... I hope you will enjoy the pictures anyway. :)

UUGGHH!

I am trying to post a series of pictures of Brody and It only let's me post 5 pictures at a time. Well there are more then 5. So I tried to save the posts so that I could post them in a certain order and I think I lost them!!! URRRR!!

Many Many still contd

Many Many Faces Contd

The Many Many Faces of Brodes!

Hang on there are quite a few but seriously I had to post them because he is so expressive!! He just makes me laugh! It's the good, the bad and the ugly of the Brodester! Enjoy. :)

SPEEDY GONZOLES

Brody absolutely loves to ROCK in his high chair and when he gets going he gets pretty excited!!

AND yes I know that they are blurry but I think it makes it funny!! Especially the fact that you can still see his big cheesy grin on his face!! Hahahaha... what a guy. :)

marriage isn't always easy.

I know I know... we aren't supposed to air are dirty laundry. So I will just send out a wiff into the blog community, not a full airing.

More then anything I just need some support and encouragement. As you can imagine we got in an argument. One of those ugly ones where you aren't very nice to each other. I hate those. So he is snoring away in the bedroom and I am quietly weeping on the couch. I hate that. Why can they sleep no matter what and us girls stew. Honestly I believe that the whole thing is quite frivelous (sp??) but it hurt me. Satan is just running with it and beating me up. I feel horrible tonight about who I am and I hate that. I hate that something small can make us feel horrible about who we are as people. So pray for me. Please pray that I will see satan's lies for what they are, that he will not have any power of me in my head or in my heart. Pray that I can truly embrace that my worth comes from Christ Jesus.

My sister posted a blog tonight that ultimately was about appreciating your life, even in hard times. It was quite good. I think I need to go reread it and stop the pity party. Good night. Thanks for reading my sad little story. I will stop feeling sorry for myself now and go to bed. :)

PROUD AUNTIE!!

DJ, Lance, Drew, Carson, Matthew, Sam, Cade, Sophie, Isabelle, Christopher, Chantelle, Tommy, Grant, Wade, Trevor, Adam, Jonathon, Travis, Jesse, Kendra and now I get to add Amelia Grace. :)

Amelia was born on the 19th. She weighed 6lbs 9oz. :) I can't wait to hold that little baby doll.

I just want to say that some of you I have never met, some of you I don't get to see very often but all of you I love. I think of you and pray for you often. love you. your auntie.

Last week

Ok. So I promised some pictures from last week with Grandma. There are also some pictures of Grandpa and Brodes. I think they kind of liked each other.

9 months ago today!

May 18th @ 6:32 am Broderic Scott was born. My goodness I don't know what to say. The time has passed so fast. A year will be here before I know it. I wish I could slow down time just a little bit and make mental notes of every detail with my baby. This last weekend my sister and brother in law were saying that they don't even remember their daughter at Brody's age. That makes me so sad. I am sure that I will forget as well, I really have a terrible memory but oh how that makes my heart ache. I don't want to forget. I love the way he pulls himself up onto things, the way he eats his food and tries to pick it up with his little fingers. He tries so hard to pick up his food, get it to his mouth only to drop it on his bib, I love the way he laughs, sometimes the way he cries :), I love the way he crawls, kisses, the way he smiles and looks and Don and I. I love how he jabbers, oh how I love the way he jabbers. I don't think there could be a sweeter sound then the sound of my son's little voice. :)

"Pray Pray Please"

I know that I have asked all of you for prayer for our friends Nate and Lisa as their two year old daughter battles cancer. On Feb. 18th she will be having surgery. There are serious risks involved and they are very afraid of those risks and yet they speak of peace. Peace that this is the direction that they are supposed to pursue. I really can't speak right now. Please please read for yourselves on Anna's blog and please please pray for our friends and their darling girl. Thank you.


http://www.caringbridge.org/cb/inputSiteName.do?method=search&siteName=annameg

I almost forgot....

I also cleaned the fridge out. :)

My first full day with Diane

Wow. This is for my own sake because I want to see the list. This is everything that I got done today. :) None of this would have been possible without Diane helping me with Brody. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!

1. Dishes
2. Cleaned the kitchen
3. swept and scrubbed kitchen floor
4. Oh. made breakfast for everyone (that should have been first.)
5. clean out and organized kitchen cupboard
6. cleaned out and organized entry way closet
7. scrubbed entry way floor
8. cleaned the bathroom
9. organized and cleaned out bathroom closet
10. cleaned bedroom - organized books, organized dresser drawers.
11. Laundry

AND I still had to time to make dinner, give Brody a bath, play with Brody, watch a video with him, watch American Idol and watch a movie. AND WRITE IN MY BLOG!! Now I am going to go do the dishes from dinner and go to bed. WHEW!! Goodnight. :)

Next Week

I have a rather large family. My family dynamics are interesting. It's not always easy but when I really evaluate each person in my life I appreciate my family so much. My parents are divorced and remarried. Total I have 7 sisters. :) Pretty crazy huh? It's kind of amazing that between 4 adults there were no boys, all girls.

Anyway, the whole point to all of this and that my step-mom Diane is coming to spend a week with us next week. Just to be here and help out. Truly she is such a God sent. Donny has class everyday next week from 8am-5pm. He is taking a full course in a week. Also he has a big paper due at the end of the week. So he is in class all day and then going straight to the library to work on his paper. It's going to be so wonderful to have Diane here helping me with Brody. This is also going to allow me some time to get out of the house and hang up brochures and business cards. It will be an interesting week. I am sure that we are going to have some fun. I can't remember the last time that I have spent this much time with my step-mom and am excited to see her. I think that her and Brody are going to have a great time together. I will try to take some pictures and post them. :)

Update

Praise God. What a quick response to prayer. Don was able to fix the pipe in our kitchen with help from a wonderful friend. Thank you so much Todd. Their is still a small fix that needs to be taken care of but for now the pipe is fixed. The pipe doesn't fit the sink so Don has to get something to take care of that but it sounds like it will be a quick fix. It could have been so much worse. whew...

Burst Pipe

We have a pipe burst in our wall in our kitchen right behind the sink. I have been praying since Don told me. He is currently trying to fix it. Hopefully he is able to fix it. Otherwise this could be a very large expense. Also, If someone else has to fix it I am not certain how long we would have to go without hot water. :( Yuck. What a mess. Please pray for us. Pray for Don as he tries to fix the leak. Thanks.

GOING CRAZY... REALLY CRAZY..

Brody has decided that tonight he isn't going to sleep. Instead we are coming up on almost two hours of him crying and screaming. He is SOOOOO tired but will not go to sleep. I am so exhausted I can hardly keep my eyes open. Oh Lord please please help Brody go to sleep or keep me from going crazy.

My Fun Day

Yesterday I got to spend my day with my wonderful friend Melissa and her beautiful children. I was hoping to get more pictures but I did get one very important picture. Isn't he just beautiful. :) It was very fun and relaxing. There were 5 kids in the house and you wouldn't have known it, it was pretty quiet. :) Thanks Mis for having me over. It was a great day!! I love how much we have been able to see you lately. :)

Where is my video camera???

HAHAHAHA.... It's around somewhere but by the time I get it out Brody will have stopped yelling at the TV. You heard me right, he is laying on the floor yelling at the TV.

He also started tonight trying to figure out a way to get down once he stands up against the couch. So he bends half way down putting his had down first, then he gives up on trying to reach the floor and just drops and rolls. Then he gets back up and does it all over again... He cracks me up!!

Welcome Trigg Favre Schaefer!

I have some of the best friends. Seriously. My friends are amazing. They are so supportive, encouraging, & loving. I thank God for all of them. One of my dearest friends, Melissa, had her 4th baby on Feb. 2nd. 12:20am. He is gorgeous, Trigg Favre Schaefer. He was 7lbs, 20 3/4" and was 2 weeks early. :) Congratulations to Melissa and her family. I love you. :)

Here is a link to Melissa's sister's blog. Hahaha... that's kind of funny. She is a fantastic videographer and she put together a video of Trigg. Enjoy, it's so beautiful. :)

http://www.maydaygirl.blogspot.com/

My Donnyboy

I love my darling husband. I spose that is a good thing since he is my husband. I woke up today and was given breakfast in bed. :) What a doll. Ok but there is more. He made me breakfast on the day that he starts his new job. What a guy. I am so proud of him. He looked soooo good today walking out that door in his new duds. I am excited to hear how his first day at his new job went. He has worked so hard and sacrificed a lot to get this opportunity... oh yeah.. did I mention how proud I am of my husband.

Tick Tock Tick Tock

The clock was taunting me last night. If we had a clock that ticked I think I would have literally gone crazy. I didn't go to bed until almost 4am. I wish I could have a remote control for my brain and just shut it off when I need to and turn it on when I need it. Ever since pregnancy my brain hasn't worked quite right so being able to turn it off and on as needed would be pretty helpful. Right now the baby is sleeping and it would be great if I could turn it off and snooze. :( Anyone out there in marketing??

So many new things

Brody is growing and changing so fast that I can't seem to keep up with all the new things he is doing. Just at the beginning of December he had started commando crawling. I think it was about mid January when he started crawling on his knees, he sits up but not completely from a laying down position. I was just get used to him crawling on all fours when all of the sudden last week he pulled himself up using the couch. He hardly did it at all and all of the sudden in the last two days he does it all the time. Now here is the kicker tonight he decided that pulling himself up wasn't enough, NOW HE IS TRYING TO CLIMB UP ONTO THE COUCH.... HAHAHAHAHA... boy am I in trouble. :) Here are some pics. The last one is my favorite. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do.

HE FOUND THE T.P.

Brody found our toilet paper! Hahaha..... Our house is small and there isn't a lot of space for storage. We buy a lot of stuff in bulk, so I use what space I can and the toilet paper and the babies diapers are under the crib. I wish I would have gotten the picture of him when he got stuck and he was looking at me from under the crib... it was really cute. His head is bigger then he thinks it is.

Short & Sassy

I got about 3-4 inches cut off. :) Anyone notice anything else??? ;)

"I've Got My Wife Back!"

It's interesting when you know in your life that maybe you aren't doing great, you might be a little down or a little moody but it's just life.

When I look back over the last two & half years of my life anxiety, irritability, and depression were a part of my life. In the last two weeks I have been so happy. I think I almost forgot what feeling normal was like. I have had several people tell me that I sound so happy. I am. Last week Donny looked into my eyes, put his hands on my face and smiled as he said " I got my wife back."

At times I still feel anxious but with each day it's less and less. I am happy to be back. :) Praise God.

WOOHOO... what a show!!

As many of you know Donnyboy got a new job. The man doesn't buy himself clothes! I buy him clothes once in awhile but he is kind of picky.

So today we went shopping!! It was fun. He got a lot of new stuff and some very needed clothes. I am proud of him for actually buying himself some new clothes. The fun part of this shopping experience came this evening. He told me he was going to try his clothes on and I told him he had to put a show on for me! What a trooper. He came out in every outfit and had me cracking up. I will just say that he had moves I had never seen before!!! Hahahaha.... I love him.

Am I out of control??

Maybe you shouldn't answer that!! HAHA... I have to catch up. Here are some more pics of the Brodester. This should satisfy some grandparents, aunties, and any other Brody lovers. Enjoy!!

SOME MORE PICS

I don't think Brody is very fond of cottage cheese. By the end of breakfast it looked like he was praying for it to stop!! hahaha....

Weekend with my sis!

I had a great weekend with my sister. We did a little damage at ULTA!! :) That was fun. Watched movies, drank wine, relaxed and we went out to dinner at the rainforest cafe. I forgot my camera but at least Tami had hers. Here are some pics from our trip to the Rainforest Cafe. :)

THE JUMPEROO

We bought the Brodes a jumperoo for Christmas. I just thought that I would show you some pics. This might show some of you a side of my baby that you have never seen before!! :)