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I don't really know what to call this entry... Jennifer's Ramblings... blah blah blah.... or yeah... really don't know. I have been busy in my head this weekend. It's been a weird weekend. Good in some ways for sure but still hard overall. I guess this weekend I have thought a lot about relationships. I have been reminded this weekend of friendships past and friendships that have always been there but maybe somewhat taken advantage of. When I say it was taken advantage I guess I just mean that you get used to be able to call someone when you want or maybe see them whenever, or you think you will. So for some reason you make less effort. They are still important to you but there is an idea that they will always be there. Somewhere along the lines I realized today that I have grieved over friendships that I need to finally let go. However, I am reminded of amazing friends, friends who love me, who have always been there and have been almost waiting on the sidelines to recognize who is a true and genuine friend and who is someone that God only intended to have in my life for a brief time period. I think that it's important to be able to have the discernment to recognize the ones that no matter what trial you go through your friendship is strong enough to withstand it because it's built on something that is bigger then the both of you. I told you I am rambling. I saw a friend today that I haven't seen in a long time and I have missed her so much. I guess I just didn't realize how much I missed her until she had to leave and I didn't want to say goodbye, someone who has always been there for me and I am confident always will be. I guess that is my point... I have put too much energy into people who aren't the same kind of friend to me and yet don't put enough energy into the ones that have always been there and always will be. Why do relationships have to be so hard. I have never been someone who lets go of people very easily but I think that when relationships aren't healthy we need to be able to let them go and move on. When I look at my friends I truly am amazed at the women that God has brought into my lives over the years but it truly has been the ones that I have known the longest who have always been there for me, always supported me, and again even though there may have been trials our friendship has withstood. I praise God for you. I am so thankful to call you my friends.