The First year...

Our first year is coming to an end with our son and I can't grasp where it's gone. I am planning his party this week, cleaning the house and trying to put together a video that shows his first year. It's overwhelming me as I look back on his first year. I feel like I blinked and it's gone. I am excited to celebrate but as it gets closer and closer I can't believe how sad I am. I think in a way it scares me a bit because it's gone so FAST and I always hear how people talk about how fast their children grow up. I wish that I could just have a constant video camera going to capture everything... I don't want to blink, sleep, eat, breathe (yes I am being a bit melodramatic) but I just don't want to miss a thing and I don't want to forget anything. I have a terrible memory. So my point is if it's all captured on video I can pause it, fast forward rewind and just watch him grow up over and over again. I hope I don't forget the precious things he does, how he grows, the little things he is going to say... :(